Tony and I have been talking a lot about next year. With my intention to focus solely on photography and our housing situation, there's been a lot to mull over.
Life in it's current state with housing, employment and monies are just fine. After several years of hard work, we've gotten to point where we aren't struggling. We're not afraid of either of us being laid off or anything remotely similar . . . and yet, very soon, we're going to choose to put ourselves into a potentially scary situation.
I really do try not to worry, but I as my mother's daughter, I think I caught it from her.
At this point, I have five 2014 weddings booked, with 3 consults on the books. I'm receiving inquiries for March, April and May, in addition to already booking a May wedding. With Spring weddings usually low volume comparatively, I can't help but feel like it might be an example of God's favor and confirmation that we're moving in the right direction.
Regardless, I keep getting to the verge of having a mini breakdown, because let's be honest, sometimes it just feels right to freak out. That's when I very plainly hear "It will be okay."
This my friends is not my normal self-talk. With so many messages vying for my attention from the world, my family and myself, I know it's God.
I'll admit, that I still use this as an opportunity to worry, because God's idea and my idea of "okay" could vastly differ. God's "okay" could mean letting me fail to keep me humble, while mine would obviously completely skip any painful life lessons. Hah!
So did you catch that? I'm hopeful, but worried, especially about feeling hopeful that God's actually blessing this decision. How's that for contradictory feelings?
And then there's the whole housing situation. With a small two bedroom house, we know we have a move on the horizon . . . we just don't know if that's this fall, next spring or in 5 years. Whether we should try to rent our house or sell it, for us to either rent a house or buy one is also completely up in the air.
I've been praying that Tony receive direction from God, as the head of our house, because I don't want to be in a similar situation as we found ourselves when buying our house. We were completely bullheaded and just did it, without much time to consider it and absolutely no prayer. '
I'd definitely appreciate prayer in these matters for us as well! The biggest issue being complacency, as we have a roof over our heads and aren't sure we should be in any hurry to change it.