Next Year

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Tony and  I have been talking a lot about next year. With my intention to focus solely on photography and our housing situation, there's been a lot to mull over.

Life in it's current state with housing, employment and monies are just fine. After several years of hard work, we've gotten to point where we aren't struggling. We're not afraid of either of us being laid off or anything remotely similar . . . and yet, very soon, we're going to choose to put ourselves into a potentially scary situation.

I really do try not to worry, but I as my mother's daughter, I think I caught it from her.

At this point, I have five 2014 weddings booked, with 3 consults on the books. I'm receiving inquiries for March, April and May, in addition to already booking a May wedding. With Spring weddings usually low volume comparatively, I can't help but feel like it might be an example of God's favor and confirmation that we're moving in the right direction.

Regardless, I keep getting to the verge of having a mini breakdown, because let's be honest, sometimes it just feels right to freak out. That's when I very plainly hear "It will be okay."

This my friends is not my normal self-talk. With so many messages vying for my attention from the world, my family and myself, I know it's God.

I'll admit, that I still use this as an opportunity to worry, because God's idea and my idea of "okay" could vastly differ. God's "okay" could mean letting me fail to keep me humble, while mine would obviously completely skip any painful life lessons. Hah!

So did you catch that? I'm hopeful, but worried, especially about feeling hopeful that God's actually blessing this decision. How's that for contradictory feelings?

And then there's the whole housing situation. With a small two bedroom house, we know we have a move on the horizon . . . we just don't know if that's this fall, next spring or in 5 years. Whether we should try to rent our house or sell it, for us to either rent a house or buy one is also completely up in the air.

I've been praying that Tony receive direction from God, as the head of our house, because I don't want to be in a similar situation as we found ourselves when buying our house. We were completely bullheaded and just did it, without much time to consider it and absolutely no prayer. '

I'd definitely appreciate prayer in these matters for us as well! The biggest issue being complacency, as we have a roof over our heads and aren't sure we should be in any hurry to change it.


Joi said...

I'm so happy you are able to make your photography business so fruitful! You are so talented, Leah!

Meredith said...

You're going to do it. No doubt here, friend.

When we made the decision for me to stay at home, I honestly wasn't comfortable with it at all, but after much prayer felt clearly that it was what God was calling us to. It was one of the few times I've taken a very large leap of faith. Right at the beginning, I was constantly running myself through all the worst-case scenarios and their ultimate outcomes...which oddly enough helped! Running through that "what if Justin gets laid off" scenario and all that would result from it made me realize that really, while it would SUCK, it really wouldn't be the end of the world. It just wouldn't.

Basically, it may well be hard, and it may well be scary or uncomfortable at times...but if it's what you're being called to do, it will be worth it :)

Gina Horkey said...

My husband just started staying home and this was a huge faith step for us; we had never really considered the possibility to go from two incomes down to one, but like you guys have worked hard over the last couple of years to put ourselves in a better position financially. I've felt peace and confirmation that this was a step God wanted us to take and am usually an obsessive worrier about $$ things, so am glad to not be;-) Good luck. I'm sure it'll work out just fine!

Megan said...

I always say I would STILL be working full time if I wouldn't have been let go... I don't know if I ever would have been able to take that leap of faith that we'd be ok, and yet here we are. We're okay. And you will be too.

I love your honesty and you can count on my prayers.

Emily said...

Ugh, just wrote a long post and it errored out when I clicked publish. Bottom line, good for you! I'm glad you're doing what feels right for your family.

Also, I have that Target blue flowered top with the blue and white leggings (6-9 months) for you all washed and ready to send to Miri. Email me your address (emilymckevitt at gmail) and I'll get it in the mail to you.

Lalande said...

You have an amazing gift and I have no doubt you will do exceptionally well with your photography full time! My prayers are with you.

Freckles Chick said...

I remember when you first started your photography business. It was a brave move & you certainly have an amazing gift. I'm so happy recognition of your incredible skills has grown so!! I'm only a blog friend but I can feel how right this is, the direction your lives are moving. Much love to you!!

W said...

I get this. Especially about God's okay being different from your okay. I share that same concern. But I cling to Jeremiah 29:11 and to our past experiences when things looked bleak but somehow we made it through unscathed. He is always faithful in His provisions.

jennifer said...

This post. This post is my life right now. We're *hoping* to buy/sell/move at the beginning of next spring, and I'm freaking out about it quite a bit. I'm ready to move on to the next stage of life, and plant some roots, but the fear of the unknown TERRIFIES me. I've been really trying to give this one to God though... good luck!


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