How big is baby: A pineapple at 19.4 inches and 4.4 pounds.
Weight gain/loss: One pound gain, as hoped, for 21 lbs, but I'm measuring a week ahead.
Stretch marks: After two pregnancies, I somehow still
don't have any.
Sleep: Tony has had a cough for the past two weeks
to join into the fun of Ezra waking up and Isaac still occasionally calling for
us. Throw in some insomnia, my pelvic pain and nightly leg cramps.
Diet/Cravings/Aversions: I’m just kind of over food and cooking all together.
Hummus is still a no go unfortunately. I’m eating a lot of salads, but need to
find a little more variety.
Movement: We’re transitioning from kicks to rolls and
pushes.
What I'm loving: Thinking about not being at work for almost
3 months.
Symptoms: You name it. The pregnancy insomnia is
really the worst right now and my hormone fueled emotions.
What I'm looking forward to: Meeting this little one. I saw a picture on
facebook the other day of a photographer I follow. It took me about 5 seconds to
decide I was looking at my best guess of what this little miss could look like.
I haven’t spent a lot of time wondering, since really, who knows! But seeing
that picture, it was the first time I actually could envision a body in the
clothes that I’m purchasing.
Best moment of the week: I’m going to say tomorrow will probably be
the best moment of the week. Tony will work his final MSHSL playoff game and
then we’ll coast to the end of the season!
How I'm feeling: Like an emo 29 year old.
Yesterday I wrote a short post and deleted it, as many of you in google reader
saw, and I’ll totally own that I was way too melodramatic, even for me. I’m
just very overwhelmed right now and I feel like every.single.detail of my life
is out of my control. I feel like all of my efforts are just not enough,
because there are too many needs to fulfill.
I had my first
appointment at the new midwife group and unfortunately, it just didn’t meet
expectations. I felt like I was going into it with very low expectations, but
even with those, they weren’t met. At the end of the day, I know that if this
baby, born on the side of the road, is healthy, nothing else really matters . .
. but I’d just hoped that since I’m not
planning for that birth that I could make a decision with reasonable confidence.
7 comments:
Your baby bump looks super cute! I haven't seen my actual OB in like 3 months now...I like the other dr.'s well enough and she didn't end up being on call to deliver my first anyway...our nanny gave her two weeks and now I don't know who will be watching our 16 month old or this lil bundle after my short leave in June...I feel you with being overwhelmed. He will provide...always does:-) We'll both have to trust in that and try to let it go (easier said then done!). Yay for hockey season being over and having your family back intact!!
Awww, you really popped now! I'm sorry you were feeling down. I saw your post yesterday and was instantly worried about you! Funny how that happens with internet friends :)
I hope it's just the hormones. They can be rough sometimes. But I totally feel you on feeling like your life isn't your own sometimes and you have no control over it.
Also, I picture your little girl looking just like you :)
Leah,
You are such a gorgeous pregnant woman!
I can't wait to see what the little miss looks like.
Did you have 12 weeks with Ezra too? I can't remember. I'm so excited for you that you get that time at home.
And I gotta disagree and say that a happy baby is not all that matters. Happy mama matters too and a good birth sets you up for a good transition at home. I am praying for a beautiful birth for you, Leah, regardless of the care provider. <3
Oh girl, I hate that feeling and I feel it often. Sometimes I just feel like no matter what I do, I can't keep up and it's all spiraling out of control. I feel like the worst wife, mom, teacher, sister, friend, person, and I could go on and on. Just letting you know that you aren't alone in those feelings and I'm sure the extra hormones are helping. Big hugs mama and just keep thinking about having that sweet little girl in your arms. I CANNOT wait to see her beautiful face.
Just found your blog - another Leah - I'm in Michigan! It's cold here too!
Hang in there. The last few weeks are the hardest. On the other end is a beautiful baby! You're almost there!
You make the cutest baby bumps EVER! :)
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