The past few years, I have entered into the new year with a vast array of feelings. 2010 :: 2011, I gladly cast off in anticipation of leaving behind our loss and looking forward to meeting our newest addition, Ezra. 2011 :: 2012, I felt blessed, just amazingly blessed, and I couldn't even imagine what God could bring in 2012 for our family.
So, 2012 :: 2013.
My friends, I get choked up to even write this, because these words are so monumental.
2013 means quitting my day job. Not today, not after maternity leave, but with an end goal by 12.31.13.
It may seem very anticlimactic to most to even hype this date, 12 months from now. But remembering the desperation of the girl I was in 2009, after very recently becoming a mother, in returning to work, leaving my child behind, and feeling much like my heart had been torn from my chest, I can't believe I'm typing these words.
God set in motion my photography business. Through a maternity session with Gina, that resulted in the most important friendship of my life. Through my Mom purchasing a lens for me. Through a bossy cousin who insisted I take pictures at her sister's reception. ;) Through Tony's unwavering support.
To all of my clients who have made it here to this blog or, even more so, the ones who started here and chose to support me: I try, so very hard to convey my thoughts through this blog, but I'll never be able to express my thankfulness for your support. Never. You have changed my life and the life of my family. You have been hand picked by God to influence my life. I only hope I have had an equally positive impact on you.
It depends on the moment, but I'm equally excited and scared. 12.31.13 seems so short to accomplish the work we have before us to prepare for this change, but we're focused.
C'mon 2013, you have a lot of living up to do.