All cluttering thoughts disappeared, as I focused on that single sentence.
We haven't spoken much about accepting Christ recently, with the most poignant conversation being in October, after Tony's Grandpa passed, so this completely took me by surprise. I should have been more prepared, as Isaac has randomly sprinkled into conversations that he wants to go to Heaven and that he would like to ask Jesus in his heart, but when I've asked if he'd like to pray then his response has very nonchalantly been "maybe a little later." And I've left it at that.
I didn't want to scare him with enthusiasm, so I asked if he'd prayed with Grandma or if she'd heard him, as I'd be very surprised if she didn't tell me. He told me that she hadn't heard him, so I asked if he'd like to pray again with me.
As a reminder, this is the boy who has in the past gotten very mad if I've initiated a conversation about God or tried to pray with him when it hasn't been his idea, so even by asking I was taking a risk.
To my surprise, he happily agreed.
And as my mind raced to remember key component of a salvation prayer, in comprehensible terms for my 3 1/2 year old, he readily repeated everything that I prayed with him. He was so happy when we finished and I asked him if he could feel Jesus in his heart. He said he did and I reminded him that Jesus was always with him and that he could always talk to him, like saying he was scared, mad or sad.
Isaac chimed in to say, "Or I can say 'Jesus save me!'"
And hearing my oldest, who so often is causing trouble, say those sweet words with such joy, well, there's just no way to express how it made me feel.
I squeezed him close, told him just how proud I was and then laid him down for bed.
And then I sat and marveled.
I don't think less of his choice because he is just shy of 4 years old. He has enough comprehension to understand that Jesus loves him, He died for his sins and that through his belief he will go to Heaven. And by the covenant established through Jesus' crucifixion, he believes, with but the faith of the child, with the innocence of a child, he believes.
I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth. 3 John 1:4