I'm not going to lie, October has been really difficult. My Mom has been taking at least one day off a week, with some forewarning for appointments, and similar for sick days. In addition to that, the boys themselves have had to deal with two bouts of sickness which made them unable to attend daycare, even when my Mom was available.
And that not to mention the fact that despite all my efforts, October was just entirely too busy business-wise. I know, I know, who complains about being busy? Isn't that like looking the proverbial gift horse in the mouth? The issue is though that at least from a family perspective, it's like Fall 2012 didn't happen.
Sure, we were able to go to the apple orchard a few weeks back, but.that.was.it.
There were no fun times in the leaves, no pumpkin patch visits, no delicious treats, bonfires or family walks to the park. We essentially live in Minnesota for the fall and absolutely did not get to enjoy it this year.
I'm really, really, trying to come up with a way to ensure it doesn't happen again next year.
I hear so often "I don't know how you do it." But the truth of the matter is, I don't. I just plain and simple don't. Yes, I try to enjoy the little moments, but all too often, those are the only moments I have. I'm reminded all too often by friends and family that childhood is fleeting and yet, I can't help but feel like I'm missing it.
I know that in just a matter of a week, this stress, this overwhelming feeling of being behind will all but have disappeared as I work through the last bit of photo work. I just can't help but feel, at what cost?
For so long, I did very well in creating boundaries to make sure that my life had some resemblance of balance and I believe that will be one of my foremost tasks this off season to reinstate.