Well, that was painful.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Yesterday was rough. Very rough. Work has certainly turned the corner from downright tolerable to full on hatred again. I hate feeling this way. I like being a team player. I like doing work that seems to have an impact. I don't like managing cases and writing tedious emails, day in and day out. My eye is still twitching daily. I don't know if it's a vitamin deficiency or if it's only related to stress.

I came home last night and hoped to unwind. No in fact, I was determined to have a good evening. The day could be salvaged, except Isaac didn't see it that way.

The crying didn't stop for at least a half an hour once we came home from my Mom's. He would not listen, to anything. He would demand to go "nanight in his crib," but scream bloody murder if I opened the door to his room. Next, "Color at the table," but apparently he didn't approve of the pen or crayons offered.

I finally started crying as well. What else was there to do? That set Isaac off even further and as I rocked and tried to console him, he just cried harder and harder. "Mama HOLD you!" Even though I already was.

10 comments:

Jenifer said...

I feel your pain friend. Take a deep breath you can get through this.

Kelly Bartlett said...

Not enjoying work can make life extremely hard. I have been in a similar position as you many times over the past couple of years. I wish I had some magical solution for you, but I don't. I think that talking (and blogging) about it can help take some of the emotional weight off. I also believe that praying for daily happiness helps. I often pray for happiness with what I have. I feel it makes a big difference when I do this on a regular basis. ((HUGS)) Kelly

Erin said...

Dang, I'm so sorry Leah, that really sucks. I hope you have a better night tonight, and are having a somewhat better day today at work...

Mrs. Lukie said...

The stresses of hating your job leaks into every other facet of your life--been there.

I'm so sorry things are majorly stinking right now, and I pray that something will give, and soon.

Poor Mama, poor Isaac...((hugs)).

Jeannie said...

You poor thing :( I know the feeling of wanting a better night than you did day and your little babe has another idea. I can understand the tears too.. I've been there. I'm sorry things have been so tough. I pray things for you will turn around soon and some peace will be found.

((hugs))

Melissa said...

Ugh I feel your pain :(. I hope today is better! Btw could Isaac have an ear infection? We had several days of that frustrating nothing makes him happy stuff and he had a little cough but I didn't think much of it. Well the next week we finally went to dr and when she looked in his ear she said "has he been cranky? Because he has a pretty bad ear infection." I felt so bad!

Danielle said...

My mom had a time where her eye was twitching really bad and a nurse friend of ours said that indicates a potassium deficiency. She told my mom to eat a banana or drink orange juice. My mom did, and the twitch went away. You might try ramping up on the potassium. :) Sorry things are rough right now!

Tavia said...

I've had nights like that with the little one! Sorry yours was so stressful. I've literally closed my eyes during those moments and said (outloud) "Jesus, you're going to have to tell me what to do because I can't do it by myself." He helps me every time!

d.a.r. said...

Hugs.

Meredith said...

Oye. I'm so sorry--those inconsolable crying days are so hard!

 

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