A Bit Haywire

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

This morning started at 4:00am with our smoke detector on the main level blaring. Tony quickly ran down the stairs to assess, while I gathered Isaac up. After Tony thoroughly inspected every room and level there was no smoke detected. We know it wasn't the battery and it's not an old alarm, so we're pretty perplexed.

Of course due to this uncertainty as I was lying in bed trying to go back to sleep, the incredible thought that someone got into our house, lit a match under the alarm to set it off and ran outside before Tony got down the stairs popped into my head. Oh yes it did. I am my Mother's daughter.

Unfortunately thanks in part to all of this hubbub, I turned my alarm off when it was time to prepare for my morning run with nary a thought. I was so upset to wake up at 6:00 knowing that the opportunity was gone. Tony's quick comfort, "Cuddle your boy, it'll make missing the run worth it."

So I did and continued to sleep, which is exactly the cause for Tony being late . . . well not really, he's late because he can't get himself out of bed when I'm in it, but I digress. So of course I woke up at 6:30, Tony still lying right next to me and I need to get in the shower no later than 6:40 to catch my 7:15 bus. Didn't happen.

But I've been having these thoughts in the middle of pity party moments such as these, which seem to be happening with more recurrence, that I shouldn't be wishing away these annoyances. There is a very real possibility that these are the moments to celebrate. No one knows if their next breath will indeed be drawn, a subsequent exhale. Neither are certainties.

I find myself most annoyed when I'm doing the dishes specifically. As I stand there scrubbing, begrudging Tony whatever it is that he doing when he isn't helping me complete them, I literally daydream about a dishwasher. My mind is filled with what my life will look like with such a novel contraption. And then I pause to think, who am I assume a "better" life? Who am I to think that I could be happier than I am now?

I think it's too often as Christian's we pray and hope and believe that things will turn in our favor, forgetting about Job. Easily forgetting that our purpose on Earth is not to be pleased, but rather to instead glorify God.

I may never have a dishwasher and at this point, I wonder why God would allow me it, when most days I don't truly appreciate the blessings He has already bestowed.

10 comments:

abby said...

Wow what a start to the day! I've been having some of the same thoughts about those daily little "annoyances." A little voice in my head is becoming louder and more frequent, telling me to slow down. I do hope you get a dishwasher though :)

Julia said...

i daydream about a glorious dishwasher, too, girl! Hang in there.

Andrea said...

I think we all have our little pity parties...at least I know I do on a daily basis! Keep your head up and just take everything to God in prayer. I don't think it's crazy to think He'll give you a dishwasher :)

Mandie, Daniel and Dawson said...

Uh oh! Better find out what caused that smoke detector. Could have been anything but you don't want it to be the start of a much bigger problem. And I too long for a dishwasher.

Katie said...

Leah, you have an amazing way of looking at the world and I hope to think like that on my own someday! :)

Heidi said...

Hmm. You're the iron that's sharpened me today. Very true, everything you wrote.

Rebecca (Craving Simplicity) said...

This is a great reminder for me!!

beeskneeslife said...

Wow what a great post! Really hit home with me because our dishwasher has sat broken for over a year. I actually don't complain that much about it, but am reminded of it every time I do the dishes and am sometimes negative about it. But - we almost always do the dishes together. I wash and my husband dries and we always have good conversation. Probably because we aren't being distracted by anything else at that moment. Thanks for letting me see that today.

Courtney @ Project Pretty said...

...and this is why I love you. :)

B said...

I didn't have a dishwasher my first year of marriage, and now I have one and it rocks! Um, okay, maybe that's not super-encouraging. I guess not having one that year made me grateful for it now, when I would have totally taken it for granted before.

 

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