Wedded Wednesday

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Wedded Wednesday is a collaboration
of married bloggers sharing their inspirations,

anecdotes, struggles and thoughts regarding
the amazing union of two separate people, as one.

As I mentioned in my post yesterday, Tony and I have been walking on dollar bill shaped egg shells lately. Our necessities have pushed us to live past our means as we first rode out his change to commission only and now have been hoping and praying for our business venture to pan out.

Photography money, family handouts and other support has kept us going, but I'm not going to lie there's been heavy reliance on our line of credit and a credit card, singular so far. Monday night some of these issues came to a head because as they say, the definition of insanity is continuing to do the same thing expecting different results! We simply can not continue on as we are, because well our resources will soon be exhausted, there's no choice in the matter.

Tony and I have lived in a little bit of an alternate universe for awhile as numerous issues have taken time to resolve or we hoped that they would and I find it laughable that just last week I seriously thought that my saved photography money had a prayer to be invested towards a new camera body. It can't be used until I know that it won't be needed for our house!

At the end of our discussion Monday night, Tony kept repeating, "We'll be all right. Have faith. Have faith." I just wanted to scream at him, "Have faith in what?" We made these plans, God does not have to honor something that is apart from His will. I felt completely hopeless. It seemed so apparent that clearly our desires were not aligned with God's desires. And yet Tony kept repeating, "Have faith." Hah I thought, "What could possibly change in the near future that hasn't happened in the last 6 months?"

Well, I'm not laughing now. A lot can happen. Not necessarily good, not necessarily bad, but certainly a lot more action has taken place than the words we've been fed up until this point.

More to come, as always.

Moral of the story, don't challenge God. He's got His own timelines and can move mountains.


Anonymous said...

Way to leave us hanging... ;)

Mrs. Lukie said...

This is going to be good...can't wait :) God, of all people, has the best sense of humor (though I don't always find myself laughing) ;)

Julie S. said...

I agree with Mrs. Lukie- God has the best sense of humor, even if we don't see it. I can't wait to hear more.

Jen | Our Life Accounts said...

ohhhhhh I'm on the edge of my seat! Can't wait to hear the rest! Recently I've found myself in a few situations where I was so angry with God and just raged at Him, everytime, He gave answers abundantly clear-sometimes it just took me a little while to come around. Having faith is tough, especially when you don't necessarily have full confidence that it's where you're supposed to be. Take comfort in the fact that, as long as you have faith in God, He will direct your path. It seems so simple yet it is single-handly the toughest thing for me because if God is directing my path than all my worries are for naught. It's tough to see through the clouds but look back to where you've been and see how God has provided so far. He always gives, often times it's *just* enough so that you don't forget where it came from.

Meredith said...

Justin ALWAYS says that too..."Don't worry--God will provide."

And for awhile, I would get so mad at him for that, because I'm sure that sometimes people who are believers and have faith STILL have their houses foreclosed upon.

But then right after staying home with Lizzy, I realized that even that wouldn't be the end of the world. Do I want it to happen? No. And I'll do everything in my power to prevent it, but it still wouldn't be the worst thing in the world, and God could still make something beautiful from the pain.

Can't wait to hear more...


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