SuperTarget Parking Lot

Sunday, April 25, 2010

A year ago, around this time, I was sitting in the back of a SuperTarget parking lot right along 694. The conversation between Tony and I was strained, illuminated by the dashlights of the Chevy truck. After 24 hours of intensifying contractions we'd finally decided to head to the hospital, against their wishes that I meet the 5 - 1 - 1 criteria. I'd had it. I mentally and physically could not bear to advance without knowing that some progress had been made. However, less than 10 minutes down the road I sobbed to Tony that there hadn't been a single contraction. So we exited the highway and waited, and waited. I tried to relax, recalling the advice of my childbirth class. Birth was not something to be frightened of, I needed to overcome the desire to fight my body's need to prepare. But after 20 minutes of waiting, we ultimately decided to turn for home convinced that we were done for the night. It was then that I called my birth photographer Melissa and told her to turn home, there'd be no Baby Bless that night. That was just the beginning of things I didn't know squat about.

One year ago I didn't know:
The extent of love that my heart was capable of producing.

My self worth no longer is trapped within my body.

How much bigger my dreams could grow for my life with Tony, raising a God honoring family.

That no thought would be needed to sacrifice myself for my child.

That I would be totally cool with grabbing my breasts in public to guage my need to feed or pump!

That in several instances there is no right or wrong way to raise a child, just what is right for that child or your family.

Doing the dishes could not only be a small victory, but a colossal one.

Good help should always be utilized, because no one is fooled by a wannabe Super Mom.

Even though the first three months feel like 3 years, it's amazing to realize what a short amount of time it truly is.

I could retain the essence of "me" as a Mom, with help from friends and family.

How much God loves us, as I now fully understand His giving Jesus, His son, to die for our sins. [John 3:16]

So many things I didn't know a year ago now, this birthday eve.

12 comments:

Julia said...

beautiful, Leah. I can't believe it's been a year already. Time really does fly...

Leslie G said...

Such a sweet post. I can relate to almost everything "you didn't know"! It's crazy how fast time flies because I can vividly remember you posting to announce Isaac's birth, like it was yesterday. Happy Birthday, Isaac! =)

L.C.T. said...

Wow what a lovely post. Thanks for sharing :)

Miss Erin said...

I can't believe it's already been a year! Time is really flying. Happy Birthday!

julie said...

Lovely post, Leah! I can't believe it has been a year already!

Megan said...

Happy Birthday Isaac! You are a lucky boy to have such a great mommy!

Walking With The Wheats said...

I love your header...
Marital Bliss,
It might not always be bliss but it is always a blessing!

www.dukeandsarah.blogspot.com

Kristal said...

Such a great post. I shouldn't have read it today though...it's my first day back at work and I'm already emotional!

Miss said...

WOW! I can't believe its been a year! I remember hearing from Tony just an hour after I got home that he was HERE!! It was so crazy =)

Madeline said...

What a beautiful post...how fast a year does fly! Happy Birthday little guy :)

Heidi said...

Happy Birthday Issac! I hope you have a One-derful day!

Helen Joy said...

This made me cry. So precious and so true.

 

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