And Seriousness {Part II}

Monday, October 26, 2009

For the serious side of things.

Augh. I don't even want to type it.

Seriously.

It makes my heart drop again just thinking about it.

Saturday morning while I was getting ready to take Jeannie's pictures, I was downstairs in the basement, when I heard a loud thud. My mind raced as I thought of the possibilities, knowing that I'd never heard the animals produce such a noise, leaving but one choice: Isaac. I was half way up the stairs before he even started crying. Tony was playing with him in bed, but Isaac deeked him out with an arched back and double roll . . . straight off the side of the bed.

Tony had him on his chest, trying to comfort him and I couldn't help myself, I just had to comfort him myself, even though I knew Tony was hurting as well. I stood and rocked with him, shushing him and telling him how loved he is, all the while with my back to Tony. I didn't want to kill him with my death glares or say something I would regret. It took Isaac a few minutes to calm down and when he did I was as well. I asked Tony what happened and he told me, all while apologizing to Isaac. I left to get ready again and Tony checked Isaac out, including his eyes for tracking or bounce.

When I was finished and came back up, Tony apologized to me and I tried to swallow back everything I wanted to say, because I knew it wasn't true. I knew it was an accident and very well could happen on my watch. I knew he didn't do it to hurt me and therefore didn't even have to apologize to me! He told me that he promised Isaac it would never happen again and I pray that it never does.

After a fussy feeding with my Mom and what she thought was an episode of his eyes rolling back, I called and made an appointment after speaking with a nurse. I'm sure it's just precautionary . . .

In addition to Isaac's appointment tomorrow, I have a dermatology appointment for a freckle {I know it's technically a mole, but they're so much less ominous as a freckle!} that I am very concerned about. Last year I had 3 freckles removed and one did have precancerous cells. I know what this one used to look like and am very upset by the condition I find it in now.

And this is where I remind everyone to vigilantly apply sunscreen daily, including your neck!

As for my Mom, there hasn't really been any change and she still hasn't been able to get in to our family doctor. If there are any further updates, I will definitely let you guys know!

Thank you for your love!

19 comments:

Randi said...

I hope Isaac is okay! I know he will be. Someone told me your kid will fall off a couch or bed for sure once as a baby! doesnt make you feel better, but at least you know that as a bit of comfort? keep us updated on the appt!
I also just went to the dermatologist for skin checks! i hope everything comes back okay...

Meredith said...

Ugh...there is nothing that makes your stomach drop more than a hurt kiddo!

I'm sure it's no where near the same, but I get so mad/upset even when Justin accidentally hurts one of our nieces or nephew! I can't even imagine what it will be like with our own!

Jeannie said...

Oh Leah... I hope Isaac will be okay. I know how worried you were Saturday. Please keep us posted...

kari said...

I'm praying Leah, I hope everything turns out alright. Please keep us updated on everyone, including that precious baby of yours.

Kristal said...

Ugh, leah. That sucks. I'm sure all will be fine at the appt. though.

I'm dreading this day once our baby is born. I know it will come, but it's such a hard thing to deal with. And to bite my tongue and not yell at Chad...that will probably be the hardest part. Even knowing it's not his fault, it was an accident, etc. I really have a lot of respect for your restraint.

Andrea said...

Hang in there, girl...I'll be praying for you!

Mrs.LifeAccounts said...

oh dear, hope everything works out on all fronts...I've been trying to see a dermatologist for months but they are a pain to book appointments with.

Rose said...

I'll be thinking about you, Isaac and your mother! I hope everything turns up just fine! :o)

julie said...

Thinking about you and praying!

CJ said...

I can only imagine! Thinking and praying for you guys.

Leslie G said...

I'm positive Isaac will be OK. When Cameron was 5 months (I think) stupid me left him on the changing table for 2 seconds while I grabbed his PJ's that were out of my reach. He rolled over and I watched him fall off the table and onto the carpet. I still can remember seeing him fall so clearly, and I still beat myself up for doing it. My point is, it happens to the best parents, and when we least expect it. Isaac knows you guys love him!!

Katie said...

I fear something like this happening and I feel sometimes like I test it by grabbing something just out of reach. I couldn't imagine how you feel. You are very smart to understand the situation and not yell at Tony and you are both great parents. I'm sure everything will be fine at the doctors, but it is nice to have peace of mind.

Leah said...

My goodness! You and Isaac and your mom are in my prayers!

Bluebird said...

Oh wow! I hope you guys are both going to be okay. You should tell Tony that the day my parents brought be back to the hospital, my dad accidently knocked a oscillating fan over and onto my head...those things sometimes just happen. I'm sure your little guy will be just fine.

I also hope your appointment with the dermatologist checks out okay. It's great that you are keeping an eye on your skin.

***Prayers coming your way***

Q, La, and Gooner said...

I hope he is ok as well. Babies are so resilient!

Megan said...

I hear ya on the "wanting to say so much, but resisting" thing... Tyler dropped Jaxon when he was less than a week old and I cried for days at the thought... Everyone tells you that it's okay but it's still so hard. Let us know how it goes.

Meagan said...

I'm the same way woman...Except I probably would have been balling and yelled at Garrett. I'm so overprotective its not even funny!

I will pray that the freckle is nothing but a freckle =)

hopefuls #1 said...

You're not the first one that has had this happen, nor will Tony be to last dad to have this happen to... Be calm and report back immediately about what the dr. says.

Good for you for taking care of questionable freckles! :)

d.a.r. said...

Wow, you handled this so well. I hope everything ended up okay and that your freckle is just a freckle...

 

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