Loose ends.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

I feel like my life is non stop loose ends right now. I haven't been much for blogging. Obviously, that's why there haven't been many posts lol.

I woke up late yesterday morning. I heard Tony's alarm go off a few times as he hit snooze. I'd fed Isaac around 4:30 and expected it to be around 6:00-6:30 and said as much as I was reaching for my phone to check the clock. Um, 7:30. Yikes. I hadn't showered since Sunday afternoon following my soccer game, so there was no ducking out of bathing to shave off a few minutes. In order to get to work at a reasonably late hour, that meant sending Isaac to my Mom's without feeding him. To be greeted by a bottle upon arrival. :(

I should have known my day would not rebound. Getting ready has become such a chore for me, my face has been absolutely wracked by blemishes. I'm really thinking about getting Proactive again {haven't used it since my Mom paid for it in high school}.

I hopped in the car in a record 24 minutes {including shower!} and received a phone call that I'd been expecting earlier. Some disappointing news was relayed, made it that much more difficult to come into an office job that I detest. For some reason that made me hit it even harder. This of course meant I dealt with even more people, which only made my day that much worse.

Tony called me while I was doing my afternoon pumping session. I had a little bit of a breakdown on him. I didn't want to go to my photography class. Feelings of futility were overwhelming. I saw no reason to spend 3 hours away from my son for something that wasn't going to pan out.

I also haven't worked out since Sunday. Tonight I'm subbing for one of Tony's friend's team. Tomorrow night is my team and a work party. I've already said that I'm bringing Isaac. I didn't really ask and probably should have because we're leaving work early . . . but it's extending into the night and there is no way I'm attending without him!

Friday night my Dad and stepMom are having a family party, since everyone is in town for my cousin Amber's wedding. Saturday then is the big event and I've been asked to shoot at the wedding reception. Everyone do a big G-U-L-P for me. Thankfully asking me to shoot was an after thought, so I really can't fail. Of course this still doesn't really help calm my nerves, as I have my own standards to live up to!

Finally, to cap the weekend I need to find time to put in a 7 mile run, as last week's 6er was successful! Next weekend is already the Lumberjack Day's 10 mile. Craziness.

Anyone else feel like they have no control over their own schedule right now?

24 comments:

Mrs.LifeAccounts said...

yes I totally totally understand what you mean...for me to go into the details right now would mean a lengthy lengthy comment (you can see my blog in like a week when maybe I'll finally have time to write it), sometimes the world seems to spin so fast that all you feel like you can barely hang on. Don't forget that the bigger plans God has for you, the more satan will try to bring you down and keep you from reaching that pinnacle. Sometimes, when things are crazy it seems like God is trying to tell us something but other times, it's because we're right where we are supposed to be and the enemy is trying to distract us and bring us down. Hang tough! God has amazing stuff in store for you! You've got a lot of talent and a lot of heart, just keep relying on Him for your strength and sanity.

Kristal said...

Yikes, you ARE busy. My schedule is crazy right now too, but I don't have a little man to account for just yet. Hang in there...hopefully it will slow down soon.

Random question - when you run, do you run with Isaac? I know your stroller is a jogging stroller, so I was just curious.

kathleen said...

Leah! It sounds like you have too many irons in the fire right now! Your schedule makes me tired and I don't have a wee baby to care for. Do you feel like you need to cut down some extras from your schedule?

Madeline said...

Just hang in there! We all get thrown curveballs and sometimes it seems that's all we get thrown :(

It will get better...all in time.
Thinking of you and sending peaceful vibes towards ya!

Living for the Little Moments said...

Sounds like you have a very hectic schedule! Hang in there!

As far as Proactiv goes, I used to use it and it was the only thing that worked for me for years. Recently I tried the AcneFree brand at Wal-mart. It's also a 3 step process (even has a set for sensitive skin) and works just as well if not better! It's only about $20 and for me is easy to pick up while I'm there for other things.

Helen Joy said...

Yes. I'm flailing around like a dying fish! I have no idea what I'm doing. Good luck with the wedding reception. Don't get nervous if you can help it. Just enjoy it.

Chelsea said...

oh honey i'm so sorry! i have definitely felt like this before. although i can't even imagine how hard it is with isaac! hang in there and i'm sure everything will turn around!

Allison said...

I completely understand. I feel like I have no control over my LIFE right now! I hope that things start looking up for you soon!

kari said...

I definitely don't quite as much on my plate as you do Leah. I'm thinking and praying for you.

Rebecca said...

Wow! You are one busy lady! I hope things calm down a bit, so you can get a chance to breath and love on your sweet baby.

Meredith said...

Yes. We don't have a weekend without plans until the end of August. still, my problem isn't a lack of time so much as a lack of energy!

Dee said...

praying for you. tomorrow should be fun and it will be fine to have your son. If it isnt, then you dont need to go either :)

Heidi said...

I'm sorry to hear that your weekend has sucked so much. I know exactly what you mean when you say you're overwhelmed with futility... and here I thought only SAHM's felt that way because we were stuck at home all day!

I'm so sorry about your complexion as well. It sounds silly, but I struggle with the same thing and those three extra forehead pimples (or five if they're really raging) can be the straw that broke the camels back sometimes.

Hope things look up and thank you for your kind words and being my bogging buddy!

MyRunningJourney said...

I'm so sorry to hear you are so stressed and so busy. I completely understand how you feel (my husband and I have jobs we detest and are in the middle of closing on a home 45 miles away from said jobs, while looking for jobs closer to the new house). Keep your head up and remember God never gives you more than you can handle.

Anita said...

YES. I feel like my life has spiraled completely out of my control. Between house stuff (appraisal was today - hoping that it appraises at a decent value so we can get our loan!), our lost kitty, finding the kitty, my stepgrandmother dying, and all of the emotional baggage that comes along with all of this, I feel like my head is spinning.

I hope that things turn around for you soon...

Julia said...

yes. I'm with you. No control whatsoever and it freaks me out, too. Hang in there and have fun at the wedding!

julie said...

Yes, I am with you! This baby could come at anytime, our busy season at my parent's business is lurking around the corner, and I have no idea how I will handle all of this at once....

I just know that God's timing is perfect, so I have to trust that- but it sure is hard!

Kaitlyn said...

You can do it. Phil 4:13 dear :)

Q, La, and Gooner said...

Sorry things are rough lovey! I definitely feel like my life isn't quite in control... Especially at this family reunion where everyone has loads of advice for me. And the Little Miss and her bed time... I can just kiss that schedule goodbye!

C said...

Know how you feel girl.. and wow, you are busy!! The good news is.. it has to slow down sometime, right? Just prioritize and keep plugging away girl. Remember what you're thankful for & how blessed you are! And of course, you'll be in my prayers!

Kirsten said...

yes... i feel like i'm letting everything else control me right now and i'm trying to figure out what my motivation behind it may be. i feel like my life is ruled by work and i hope it's not as a means of escaping things i should be dealing with head on :) i know i set up my own schedule that way, but sometimes i wonder if really have a choice... knowwhatimean?

Kristal said...

Oh, one other thing, regarding Proactiv.

My skin was sort of a PITA when I was in high school, but after that it cleared up and I was blessed with great skin for awhile. Then, right around the time I met Chad (2005), my skin started freaking out. After about a year of trying different things, I stumbled on Neutrogena's Advanced Solutions. It's a three step system, similar to Proactiv - cleanser, spot treatment, and moisturizer. I started using it and within weeks, my skin had made a rapid turnaround. I think I continued using it for about a year before I slowly worked my way back to my regular routine (which is Neutrogena Oil Free face wash in the evenings and St. Ives Apricot Scrub and Neutrogena Oil Free 30SPF moisturizer in the mornings). My skin is back to being clear again, thankfully. I'm a little worried about how pregnancy hormones will affect my face now. I haven't had any problems yet, but if I do, I'll definitely be picking up that kit again.

Anyway, it might be worth a try before you order Proactiv, especially considering that it's only about $20.00 for the set.

Andrea said...

In a word - Yes.

Hang in there. He'll carry you through.

C said...

PS- I just tagged you @ my blog!

 

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