Rainy weekend

Sunday, June 7, 2009

My fellow Minnesotans {and by the looks of several blogging buddies, much of the midwest} got in on some much needed rain this weekend. I, for one, can say that the rain didn't have much of an impact on my weekend plans at all lol.

I just want to thank you all for your wondeful comments to my last post. Those that responded did just as I hoped, by providing mondo amounts of encouragement. I don't want to come across as thinking I'm anywhere near where I would need to be to even explore this possibility, but even just setting the course scares me.

I don't want to be the next girl with a d-SLR who suddenly thinks that she's a pro {in no way referencing any of you who are new d-SLR owners and actually could go pro lol}, but photography has always been important to me. Of late I haven't pushed myself at all and instead was just a photography appreciator. When at Target I was known as a MN wedding photography resource. I had spreadsheets of photographers by budget, with plan options lol.

Which rounds me back to my experience here, another love of mine, event coordination, specifically weddings {do I get to pluralize if the only two I've had experience with were my own and this one lol?}. After doing this wedding, I again had Tony's support to pursue it where it would go . . .

I'm suddenly realizing that I've been limiting myself, because I'm scared. I actually said to Tony the other night that it was almost better in my mind to not pursue a dream, because if I didn't go after it I wouldn't know whether or not I would fail at it. Holy negatives in that thought. But seriously, how sad is that? That instead of utilizing skills that God has given me and that I find enjoyment out of, I would rather keep them hidden away so that my ego can survive.

Again, this is why I hate self reflection lol, this isn't a Choose Your Own Adventure Book in which I can just go back or flip ahead to my new course of direction. I'm still here, in my life, working a job that I hate, in an economy that's tanked, lamenting my poor decisions without God's direction. So the first step will be taking some classes . . . and praying without ceasing.

9 comments:

Chic Maps by Nikki said...

I must say that your blog is so grounding for me. Although, I'm not a mother, I find that your daily struggles help all of us realize we aren't the only ones who have these doubts and problem in our lives.
I myself am a wedding coordinator, but that wasn't an easy decision to make. I, like you, helped with friends weddings but taking to leap to doing it for a living was a HUGE leap of faith for me. It isn't always a consistent income, it involves late nights and weekends, it's being on your feet for hours, dealing with brides who expect perfection, etc... but I can say that after two years it is completely worth it! It isn't always easy but knowing that I do what I love for a living (although it is a modest living!! hehe) is so gratifying that not much else could top that for me.
Whether you pursue wedding planning, photography or even scuba diving; do it whole heartedly and know that even if it doesn't work out like you planned you at least tried it. That is important for you and is a great lesson for your little man in his future.
Good luck and if I can help you with anything please don't hesitate!

Jen said...

While it's scary to take the plunge, getting your feet wet is fun. I've just started to wade through the information on the legalities of starting your own business. So much to learn!

Kier and Nic said...

When I get married again, you can be my wedding coordinator! : )

fah said...

Why don't you see if there is a wedding coordinator/florist/photographer that will let you tag along and maybe even work/assist with a wedding. After my wedding I started doing day of coordinating with the planner from my wedding. Then she turned absolutely nutso (another story), but I also made contacts within the industry. I now occasionally work with a friend that is a florist when she has a big wedding. She works with a great coordinator that recently referred me to a couple to perform their ceremony. I'm ordained, but have only done it for friends and family. This is my first "stranger" wedding, but I've already booked another for this year as well.

As for starting your own business check out your local Small Business Development Center. Just google "your city SBDC." There's usually one affiliated with a local college, university, or chamber of commerce in your area. They provide FREE advising services and low cost/free (as in $20-$50) seminars on starting your own business. Some even have free online seminars - they're a great resource - I used to work for one.

Good luck with whatever you decide to do!

kari said...

I don't have any advice, but I just wanted to tell you that I'm thinking of you and praying for you.

*claire* said...

good luck with everything - i know you aren't the only one who hasn't quite found yet what you love doing. it seems to be a common theme - both in blogland and in real life (in my life too)! i know you will figure it out when the time is right, and look back and wonder why it took so long or why you worried so much about it! i'm sure you will, but let us know how it goes :)

Jen said...

I don't comment to your blog often, but I had to comment on this one. You know how I quit my legal job awhile back to pursue the world of science. It was the scariest leap I've ever had to take, and I admit it's been hard in the realm of finances, but I have no regrets at all this past year since I quit. The fact that I managed to get a B in chemistry with my last chem class being 10 years ago speaks volumes that I am on the right track. As scary as it is, sometimes you really just have to dive in head first and give it a shot. Take a class, join a club, whatever you have to do to see if it's really for you. I think you'll be amazed at what you can accomplish when you let yourself. Just take the first step - it really is the hardest! And you can always vent to me if you need to. I totally get where you're coming from. :) Best of luck!

Danielle said...

I also limit myself out of fear. It's a terrible habit and one that I'm trying to break but it's really easier said than done!

Rebecca said...

I love Jen's comment. The first step is definitely the hardest. I'm scared out of mind about what I'm going to do when my internship is over. I have a job until December, but what will I do after that? There's no work for architects and designers because no one is building, and I'm so scared about the future! Keep praying and good luck!

 

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