Friday, June 19, 2009

I miss him so much ladies. It's like going without fresh air to breathe. Being back in the real world has really solidified and exaggerated the changes that have taken place. I am not who I was.

There are so many similarities between getting married and having a baby, but those similarities are generally only superficial. For example, planning for a life changing event or having a shower, and there is the same heightened anticipation by all those closest to you . . . but honestly, there is no comparison.

Instead of a date set in stone, printed on invitations and paper goods galore, when expecting a baby the majority are left clueless as to their child's arrival. That is only the beginning of the unexpected.

Much like donning a new last name and transforming into the complimentary half on the two person team that is your marriage, becoming a mother is a change of identity.

To most friends the change is ever apparent. It's actually given me great comfort to hear friends tell me that I've changed, they see the mother in me now. Hearing it from my brother however was not expected, I would think that he would have been ready for the change, even anticipated it and become slightly calloused. For some reason hearing it from my brother's lips meant the most to me.

I may be hurting right now {more like aching}, but these are just circumstances. I have a husband with an undying love for his family and a son that has only continued to unite us. I may struggle to find God's will with where I am at, with the choices that I may have made without His direction, but I am still a child of the King and I know that He loves me.

I truly am blessed.Credit
Philippians 4:6-7

6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.


AmberDenae said...

Leah, you are such a wonderful person and an inspiration to many, including myself. I pray God's best for you and your precious family.

Ginger said...

what a beautiful post!

Jen | Our Life Accounts said...
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Jen | Our Life Accounts said...

It's hard to see with clarity when you're down in the pits and the fog is so thick it seems to grab you and pull you down. As you said, trust in God and he will get you through. Sometimes he allows us to experience these things to draw us closer to Him and to force us to rely on Him for all our needs. It won't be like this forever, while He doesn't promise us an easy life, He does promise to be there with us, every step of the way.

BTW, thank you for the lovely comment on my blog. Circumstances had prevented me from posting on there for awhile, but I'm back in the grove again. :)

Julie S. said...

Beautiful post! You give me so much inspiration as I get on my way to mommyhood!

Meredith said...

I'm sure you know that this verse, in particular, has been my ROCK lately. I especially love the version from The Message. Although they've certainly taken some liberty to expand, it's a good reminder for me.

Praying that it will be a rock for you as well!

Meagan said...

I'm so sorry you miss your little man so much. I know I'm going to need to come back to this post for some encouragement really really soon! <3 Hang in there mama! Let me know if you need anything!

Courtney said...

I'm so so glad you've found peace. I've been praying that you would! *hugs*


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