And later in the day.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

AJ got me out of the house today, she lured me away from my day of reminscing and prolonged crying by promising baby socks. It worked.

We talked about Bridgit a bit, but thankfully there's a huge difference between blogging and real life. There's only so long that you can dwell on the same subject, especially when that subject is the death of a cat, in public, without crying.

She made me laugh, smile and gorge myself on food {okay, that I willingly did}. I think I forgot to mention my diet the past few days. Thursday's dinner consisted of a DQ chocolate chip cookie dough blizzard with chocolate soft serve, with some restraint I ordered the small. Yesterday, the only food that touched my lips was macaroni and cheese {spirals of course} and a bag of green beans at dinner. Today again, I ate my food in one meal. I need to get over this for the baby's sake.

I was doing pretty good until I got home again. I immediately went to grab the mail and wasn't prepared for a card from my Grandma, consoling me on the loss of a pet. My relationship with Bridgit inspired her to get a cat, so I should have expected it I guess. My Grandma is also one of those card hoarders, always with a birthday card on hand for the occassion. You know she didn't just have a pet sympathy card lying around the house. It's so much the thought that counts. I was bawling walking up the sidewalk without even reading her message.

Much the same as I opened my GoogleReader. I may not be commenting on all posts and may seem bi-polar by the ones that I do comment on, but reading your comings and goings remind me that life is continuing just the same as it was yesterday. I had my responses to Sarah and Chelsie's posts just as I normally accumulate my thoughts as I read down . . . until I came to the end. Again, I wasn't prepared for the kindness. It means so much to me.

You guys have just been the greatest support. Even Tony, who isn't allowed to read my blog, but knows who you are through my retelling, suggested early yesterday that I needed to blog. Even without fully knowing, Tony still understands how amazing you guys are.

15 comments:

kari said...

I just wanted you to know that I've been thinking of you a lot lately Leah. I'm praying for you.

AJ said...

Thanks for making me choke on my french fry. You know I was just about to cry from your sweet words and I needed an "out." I kid. I'm glad I got to help you out a little bit today. Smile, my friend. It doesn't have to be all day.

ka1t_lyn said...

It is good to get out. It gives you a reprieve. A smile can be the best cure in hard times like what you're going through. Try and eat, even if it tastes like cardboard (for the baby).

Meredith said...

Thank goodness for good friends, both virtual, and in real life!

Mrs. Cup said...

Praise the Lord for wonderful friends and grandmothers!

Andrea said...

I'm glad you were able to get out today.

As always I'm thinking about and praying for you. [Maybe this will bring a smile to your face....I suddenly remembered you today when I was, um, in the shower. Don't know why..but I stopped right there and said a prayer for you...Ok, now I'm fully embarassed that I told a bunch of strangers that but if it made you laugh then it was worth it :)]

*Kimmie* said...

Still praying for you, and I left you an award on my blog!

DianeTaylor said...

Leah - I have to say that I'm a mess right now - reading your blog entries about B. I follow your blog almost daily as you are an inspiration to those of us who can't put the right words on "paper" (that's me). I am so very sorry aboput what you have been thru this past weekend. I know that doesn't help in the least - but I am struggling with 2 pets who are failing - so seeing your words and reading them help us all know that no matter what happens in our lives, we come out stronger and we embrace the kind words of strangers like a warm blanket on a cold winter nite.

God bless you and Tony - we are all praying for you.

Diane Taylor (from the nest)

Jenna and Andy said...

I found your blog from Aimee's. I teared up as I read your post! I have a tabby cat who is 12 years old. He is the best cat and follows me everywhere. I've had him since 8th grade!! I'm already worried about when he won't be around anymore!

jennifer said...

Your first post about your kitty made my eyes tear up, but I will keep you in my prayers and pray that you stay strong..

hopeful #1 said...

That's great that you got out!

This will get easier. I know that you probably can't even picture that but seriously with (as much) time (as you need) this will get better for you!

You will forever love her and you are allowed to grieve for her whenever but with time it will get easier.

You will never forget her! NEVER!

Lindsey said...

Leah,
You have been in my thoughts and prayers. I know how hard it is to loose a pet. Still praying for you friend!

Mrs. McB said...

I just wanted to let you know that I have been thinking about you and praying for you. The loss of a pet and dear friend is one of the hardest things to do. The thoughts your posts brought back to me made me cry.

Megan said...

Leah, I'm bawling reading through the last few posts. I cant imagine all that you're going through but hope you know how much you've been in my thoughts & prayers... Praying for peace and comfort for you and Tony both as you make this transition into life without her by your side.

Erin said...

Leah, I've been checking your blog but am just now getting around to commenting. To some people the loss of a pet may seem, well, not that big of a loss. I am not one of theose people. I can't even imagine having to make the decision to do what you did and am sure it weighs heavy on your heart. The thought of losing Audrey, Henry or Stanley makes me sick and frankly I can't even think about it because for some reason I think they will live forever! Crazy, but it's what I think all the same. I hope each day gets a bit easier. Erin

 

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