15w4d

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Baby Bless is starting to take up some room! He's measuring at 3.7 to 4.1 inches from crown to cute, cute rump and weighs about 1.75 ounces.

Baby Bless's bones still consist of soft cartilage but they are now beginning to harden and the development of the bones and the marrow continues. His ears are developing into a more recognizable shape and any hair already on the head and brows will become thicker. If his hair will be dark {all indications point to YES}, the follicles will start to generate pigment to color his hair already!

Oh and for once, it was not the majority! My left boob, atleast to both Ton and I is very acutely larger than the right! I even try to trick him into thinking that I think they're the same and he'll tell me very gently that he still thinks the left is larger. Lol.

So that's the fun part. :)

The not so fun part? Me. I am just having a really hard time right now, as if my posts weren't already an indication of that. I don't think it's solely because I'm pregnant . . . but it is a large part of my recent dip in demeanor.

For starters, I haven’t been enjoying two of my most favorite activities: running and soccer.

Even though Tony was impressed that my OB gave me full release to play soccer, he was pretty dead-set against it and understandably so. I, for the most part, agreed with him, it was a risk, that we didn’t have to take, so why bother . . . until I realized just how much the absence of the sport has made my personal life suffer, including my relationship with Tony. So we discussed my playing again, Tony voiced his concerns, I aired my own, and we decided it was in my best interest to play for as long as I thought I could handle it. I felt like a gigantic lifesaver had been thrown to me! Until I started contacting my teams and realizing that it would be virtually impossible for me to even sub. :( So, my lifeline was yanked back.

So, I’ve been trying to fill the void with running . . . on the treadmill. I don’t think I need to explain that there’s no comparison. But it’s something, I guess and as Meredith pointed out, I am very blessed to have the treadmill as an option {gotta love craigslist!}. Tony and I are signing up for the Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving and that’ll be something to atleast focus on for the next few weeks.

Additionally, I think it’s pretty normal . . . but I’m struggling with my changing body. I think it’s probably pretty obvious that I’ve enjoyed the way my body has adapted to hosting the little guy, by virtually not showing at all. AJ and I have discussed it pretty thoroughly, but while I’ve always been ample in the booty department, God has blessed me with a virtually no-work flat stomach. I’m not trying to have a pity party here, as there have been quite a few comments over the weeks that some posters would like my pregnancy tummy, but that picture posted above? That is the most stomach I’ve ever had in my life. That’s definitely something to adjust to. So I’m asking for prayer in the transition, because I need to let my husband think I’m beautiful, instead of denying him his opinion.

16 comments:

hopeful #1 said...

I'm confused. You are 15 weeks and you are referring to your baby as a he... do you already know what you are having or is that just out of habit?

I didn't think that I missed a post about the sex but really, after this week, I wouldn't put it past me... ;)

You're looking great (as always)!!!

Kristal said...

Leah, you are beautiful. And your body is beautiful.

I think maybe this transition will be easier for you when your belly really starts to pop. It will no longer be that weird in between phase and instead will obviously be a pregnant belly, you know?

Either way, you look great. And you are in amazing shape, so once Baby Bless makes his appearance, you'll bounce back in no time. Just try to remember that your body is changing so that you can accommodate a BABY. That's the exciting part. ;)

I'll be praying for you chica!

Mary said...

I'm sure it must feel really strange to know you're pregnant, but that others can't really tell yet. Especially since you can't do the activities you normally enjoy. I think Kristal is right when she says that when your belly pops, you will appreciate your body even more. And you are lucky because you will have a flat stomach after you deliver!

HBee said...

Aw...hang in there pretty girl! From what I hear from other moms, your feeling are completely valid. Also you look adorable. Look at your flat belly! I wish I was born with a no-work flat tummy! :)

CageQueen said...

I, for one, think you look great.


P.S. I tagged you for a meme on my blog. :)

abby said...

Bummer about soccer! And yes, DO let Tony tell you you're beautiful! I think pp are right, that once your belly starts popping more and looking more blatantly pregnant it might be easier to accept. And since you have that natural no-work flat tummy, you should have no trouble getting it back once Baby Bless is out - did I mention I hate you? :) Cause I DEFINITELY have to work!

Freckles Chick said...

We are always our own toughest critic. Going thru a body change is hard no matter what the reason. Time will help ease the transition.

That being said, you still have a flatter stomach than I do, pretty girl, and I am un-impregnated =)

Lindsey said...

You look great! I can understand this may be a quite a big transition but know that I am praying for you!

Chelsie said...

Remember, we are always our own biggest critics. I think you look great, but I know all to well that no matter who tells you this, you just cannot make yourself feel that way.

I think the other posters are right and that once your belly starts to pop, you will feel better about your body. Just keep up with the exercise and you will bounce back in no time after baby bless is born. Have fun with the Turkey Trot.

I will be praying for you!

ka1t_lyn said...

I know that it's easy to judge yourself harshly, but you really do look amazing. I know it's in no way the same but I've been struggling with a changing body latley too (as in, becoming an adult) and no matter the reason it can be a very hard struggle. The Trukey Trot will help, and your husband's encouraging words should be well, encouraged! :) It is so good that you are keeping fit throughout your pregnancy!

At the very least, it is less than 10 months of your life. While it is hard now, at least you know that it's going to be over before you know it! A healthy baby boy is worth a few months of sacrifice! :)

AJ said...

No matter how big I am compared to you, we're still going through the same fat-or-pregnant phase. A student's mom (the one who guessed) told me today that "I pudged out in the last 5 days" and asked me if I loved it. Uh..no..I don't. I still think I look fat. At some point, both you and I, and all the other pg chicks out there, will feel more comfortable being bigger. For good reason. Right now it's just awkward :) Thoughts and prayers your way.

Meredith said...

It's a tough thing Leah--like I said earlier, regardless of how "small" you know a thing is, when it's tough, it's still tough. And just because it's a "small" thing, doesn't mean that it should invalidate the fact that it's tough, you know what I mean?

Definitely praying for you as well.

Joi said...

You look adorable, Leah. But I know it's something you've gotta see.

I'm thinking of you and praying, too!

Julia said...

I think being pregnant would completely freak me out for the very reasons you listed....mostly because I wouldn't be able to control my changing body. And yet, I know you KNOW this...pregnancy is such an amazing miracle. Once you get a REAL baby belly maybe it will be more comforting? Not sure but I'm sure it's very normal to be a little emotional during this time.

Just remember to breathe and enjoy every moment...I'm sure the pregnancy will go quickly!

Ashley said...

I have gone through SO many emotions while pregnant so far. Emotionally...being overwhelmed, wondering if I'm really ready to take this on, so excited I could burst. Physically...I was never vain to begin with really, but it's just been a strange transition as my body changes without any imput from me!--haha! Truly, I love that I have a baby inside, and I know you do too. But we're all human and handle pregnancy in different ways...at least that's what I've learned. You're awesome and you look awesome!

Megan said...

I definitely understand what you're talking about - it is a lot to digest, and even though we can be excited that we're having a baby, the thought of literally "losing" our body for the next X amount of months is terrifying. I can feel your pain... I had just lost almost 80 pounds when I found out I was pregnant so the thought of 'gaining' a tummy back and gaining weight in general was (is) VERY hard for me. But... you are beautiful! Just remember that. And what your body is doing is also a very beautiful thing.

 

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